You may chose to believe whats more important in the whole process. You may chose to say its your feelings. But its only the choice that we prioritize and chose to make the focal point of our perspective. There is more to it. What brings to us in any perspective we chose, is just a view of how we see life and everything around it. It may and may not be the same. An analysis to that level prolly makes life seem more arranged, more contrived, more unreal.

What is engineered in the learning unlearning process is not an instrument, not a flute, but the melody. A melody that drives us like Krishna drove the herd. It is magical and we get led into it. Some play it good. Some play it bad. Some are extraordinary. This again is subject to who tunes and connects to what. Its a choice we make. Something that is phantasmagorically beautiful the previous moment, transitions to clouded visions the next moment. What will explain that? It is about how we suit ourselves with our presets in those containers. We change. We grow. We move on. We seek.

What I happen to realise is that prolly its just a vibrant balanced journey that we seek. Once you find someone who strikes the balance for you, is prolly a soul-mate but that still doesnt make him/her a champion musician who would strike the same chords again and again. There may be variations and thats where i see ripples arise. I also accept variations with too much of love would constrain it; too much of care would make it clingy; too much of protection transitions to possessiveness. But love is prolly a chaos with some method to madness. It is not a mission. It has no set objectives. Being a human, I also cant say its self-less. It is anything, but un-understood realisation of a seeking that is still to be achieved. Once achieved, its compromised. Its a goner. I believe the madness should prevail. That keeps it going.

So all I would pray is keep seeking, get seeked and enjoy the melody that is played for you. Freedom is no freedom. Its a curse!

You ll find a lot many who believe their love will never fade and also many who would claim there is no such thing called love. Whatever choices we make and chose to believe are based on our history of educated guesses from our past experiences; conscious and sub-conscious ones. Lets blanket this aside for a moment. The word love itself can have various interpretations with distinct meanings in different contexts. And nature of love is a topic of an unended debate and also a frequent one. What most interests the debaters is when it comes to whether its a mamillian drive similar to hunger or thirst or its a cultural need and social phenomenon; or rather something else may be.

Dictionary says – Love can be aroused as physical attraction & need and it can lead to emotional bonding and vice versa.

As a cultural shift, its more likely to take a physical to emotional route these days. Greeks put it in different senses agape and eros. Where agape is the ‘love of the soul’, eros is the ‘love of the body’. Agape is regardless of the parameters and defines, of what the one you love should do or does. Its more of an obsession and passionate liking. Everything else is demeaned in the process. Whereas eros is about physical interaction and beauty that feeds the fuel of burning passion. It is however difficult to separate one from the other. Hindus have it clearly defined as kama and prem. Like Bhagwad Geeta puts it kama is about bhog.. and prem is about yog. Radha’s love for Bhagwan Krishna was yog and Krishna’s love for his eight wives are examples of bhog.

Like hindus, ancient romans(latins) focus more on love with interpersonal persepective. Significance of love in their culture is very noticeable. If you notice Rome(roma) is an anagram for amor which means sensual passionate love and romance. In Ars amatoria(The art of love) Ovid covers all kinds of love. He has also written a guide to dating (This will be an interesting find for many Go read!!  http://tkline.pgcc.net/PITBR/Latin/ArtofLoveBkI.htm ) The chinese see it as confucianism and mohism(universal love). This gets interesting on how we found it. It so happened that we were talking, while a chinese fellow was sitting next to us who got interested and joined us in the conversation. He said love(ai) in their roots is considered a serious thing; he would prefer to say i love you to his girlfriend rather than the same in mandarin(wo ai ni). If he had to say it in traditional chinese language he would prefer using it in a lighter context “wo xiuan ni” which means I like you.

Now while conversing what kept coming to us unanswered was how do we know when a love is pure love for the soul or just love for the body. And how can we determine how long it will last, if its love for the body, it may fade away sooner or later, which is a big concern to all the couples out there, who are yet to solidify the bond and also those who are ringed together, but are concerned and scared to death with thoughts that their partner may indulge in extra-marital affairs. It boils down to question of trust. I have seen some people who would just breach the unset norms in the shadow of their possessiveness and being protective. Americans, are the best of the lot when it comes to dissolved boundaries. They are capable of falling in love again and again They have an average rate of marriage vs divorce ratio as 2:1, whereas indians and some other communities, see it as a life long attachment.

We listed that are three ways love usually happens. It can be through companionship, it can be passionate love(the concept of soulmates) or it can be just physical need. Now at first instance, it is very difficult to draw line between the second and the third. Say for eg. You see someone at some random place, and that very instant you feel the connection. You feel something magical happening. You say to yourself – This is the one. Just a gaze from them is enough to ignite your senses. But if this happens to you seeing every girl/boy now and then then most likely its the third one. Now, coming back to first type, this one we see we happening around us so often. You ll find kids falling to this type in schools, colleges and your colleagues offices. What is strikingly strange is that once the couple is subjected to different environments the love magically vanishes the same way it magically started for them

It is often noted that the psychological need has a big share contributing, which transforms into need and finally into physical need. The transition and the shares may differ, case to case and also how the two sexes involved see it. Where girls from a not so rich background, opt more for a relationship based on psychological need; girls from a fairly rich background seek the physics, chemistry and biology of it. However, it also noticed that girls get attracted more to guys, with an adventurous, carefree life with a harley davidson and a rockstar profile. Across the table all agreed to this These so called bad guys are not so faithful like those with the nice guy syndromes but they still win the battle…eventually lose the war but how is that different with the nice guys. As opposed to the same concept, we laughed at how the nice guys are not so nice. They can be more shrewd strategists. Its a long debatable topic, with different opinions and their containers. So after a long debate, we finally agreed that universal truth is – Girls like the bad guys nevertheless …. prolly because, rude or whatever they are, they are very honest in their approach but ruthless in their behaviour. And emotions and tears drive these nuts madly, but sadly they get sacrificed in the process.

We shifted our focus to more leading question “How do we know this is longterm. This is the kind of love we want to seek lifelong.” And what we found us was this

Love is not just about falling in love. Its about falling in love again and again. Just like you want to have sex again & again. The objectives may be different and so may be the chemistry, but the physics of premise is the same. Ideally, it is about falling in love with the same person over and over, rather than falling out of love and falling for someone else again. Many marriages miss the intimacy in their love for each other and lose out for the same reason. In words often heard it is “it becomes mechanical”. Years of courtship and romance cannot guarantee this. It only happens if they believe in one another blindly. Prolly thats why they say – Love is blind!

Easily explained, It is free from the constraints of unrequited love. Its like even the usual monotony can feel like contentment – a complete relish at the end of the day, if things are lined up fine. And it doesn’t take much long, to find out that mere passion, which sides around sexual gratification, is not sufficient in itself to build a long-lasting relationship. I have seen guys talk about their companionship and how it is stimulated by all the five senes. Smells good, feels good, tastes good, sounds good and looks good. And they seem to have a perfect pleasant company, that makes em feel HAPPY. Still this doesnt last so long, It doesnt always withstand the pressure of time. It gets seized. As we grow, we grow out of this love, rather than growing with it, or growing in it. As we grow, there are changes and some are about lifestyle and thinking, some are about needs and concerns but somehow they believe, they feel, it has reached an end. Thats where both the parties move on in different directions. It has trouble maturing into “Forever”. Forever is prolly not forever anymore. Or may be it never was. Its just a lose term may be. Having talked about that, just for a moment stop and think. it has happened to most of us. Isnt it? and we moved on…

However, in the “love for a soul” or what we know as agape, from greeks; it has no set qualifications. It has no restraints. It doesnt say – if you do this i ll love you. It doesnt say – you should change this or this should change between us. It has no fine print. You just choose to given in. You choose to accept them the way they are, with whatever they have or dont have. It becomes – “I need you” rather than “You need me”. It doesnt seek gain. It doesnt seek gratification. The pursuit itself is self-satisfying. But this can be a fallacy and delusional at the same time. Aint it? You ll end up writing poems, celebrating your pain.

I believe the more we help our partners achieve their full potential in life, the closer we get to maturity. Its the only sane route. Demonstrating that selfless desire for them to gain, is the strongest base for building lasting relationships. But its most difficult to exercise and it doesn’t come so naturally unless you find the right soul, when Its contentment!

First of all we will make the usb_modeswitch to do the job automatically everytime the usb is inserted.

You have followed the steps in http://navindutta.com/wordpress/2009/09/installing-reliance-broadband-on-fedora-linux-part-one/

Now lets continue make the usb cdrom to usb modem switch automagic .. so all this is will be done when you insert the device in usb

#vim /etc/udev/rules.d/70-persistent-cd.rules

Append the following to the end of the file

ACTION==”add”, ATTRS{idVendor}==”19d2″, ATTRS{idProduct}==”fff5″,
RUN+=”/usr/bin/usb_modeswitch”
ACTION==”add”, ATTRS{idVendor}==”19d2″, ATTRS{idProduct}==”fff1″,
RUN+=”/sbin/modprobe usbserial vendor=0×19d2 product=0xfff1 maxRSize=12288 maxWSize=8192“

Once this has been done run the following and then plug your modem in and run this command to load the newly set rule.

#udevadm control –reload-rules

Now if you notice you dont have to run the usb_modeswitch everytime you plug in the modem. It is done automagically.. Cool !! aint it? as well as teh modprobe for high speed access.

Everytime you want to connect to the internet you just need to run the command

#wvdial

Thats it!!! There you go Have fun!!

(You can check how to set it up here at the link below)

http://navindutta.com/wordpress/2009/09/installing-reliance-broadband-on-fedora-linux-part-one/

Hmm… Not quiet what we want when we pay for 3.1MBpS.. This should be dealt with; but how.

After hours of toil I figured out how to do this. Lets setup the kernel compiling environment. We update our kernel; install kernel source packages and kernel header files for compiling the hacked usbserial kernel module.

(My kernel version was 2.6.27.30-170.2.82.fc10.i686)

Lets do this.

#yum update kernel
#yum install kernel-devel
#yum install kernel-headers

After this I tried to build a custom kernel but it kept failing. This was taken care of after I installed the ncurses dependency package for kernel compiling.

#yum install ncurses-devel

Okay..after installing ncurses-devel package lets see if we can build the kernel.

#cd /usr/src/kernels/`uname -r`/ && make menuconfig

Yes we can GEE …YUHOO … it gives a pretty menu like interface .. so we are ready to build our patched usbserial.ko

Lets locate the source file

#locate usb-serial.c

Output
#########################
/usr/local/bin/ztemtApp/zteusbserial/2.6.27/usb-serial.c
#########################
End Output

Lets copy this file the kernel module compiler directory for usbserial

#cp /usr/local/bin/ztemtApp/zteusbserial/2.6.27/usb-serial.c /usr/src/kernels/`uname -r`/drivers/usb/serial/

Make a backup if something goes.

#cp /usr/src/kernels/`unname -r`/drivers/usb/serial/ /home/nick/Desktop/usbserial_emergency_backup

Copy the files from the running usbserial module to build directory
#cp /usr/local/bin/ztemtApp/zteusbserial/2.6.27/* /usr/src/kernels/`uname -r`/drivers/usb/serial/

Patch the current usbserial.c with added layer to accomodate highspeed access argumentss

The patch file should be like this
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> static ushort maxRSize, maxWSize, maxISize;
841a843,844
>         if (buffer_size < maxRSize)
>         buffer_size = maxRSize;
865a869,870
>         if (buffer_size < maxWSize)
>         buffer_size = maxWSize;
891a897,898
>             if (buffer_size < maxISize)
>             buffer_size = maxISize;
1260a1268,1273
> module_param(maxRSize, ushort, 0);
> MODULE_PARM_DESC(maxRSize, “User specified USB input buffer size”);
> module_param(maxWSize, ushort, 0);
> MODULE_PARM_DESC(maxWSize, “User specified USB output buffer size”);
> module_param(maxISize, ushort, 0);
> MODULE_PARM_DESC(maxISize, “User specified USB interrupt buffer size”);
************************************

Or you can download this patched file
Instead of building the whole kernel, lets just build the usbserial.ko kernel module

#make -C /lib/modules/`uname -r`/build M=/usr/src/kernels/`uname -r`/drivers/usb/serial/

Create a backup for the current usbserial.ko

#cp /lib/modules/`uname -r`/kernel/drivers/usb/serial/usbserial.ko /lib/modules/`uname -r`/kernel/drivers/usb/serial/usbserial.ko.backup

You will find a ztemt.ko in the /usr/src/kernels/`uname -r`/drivers/usb/serial/

copy this file to /lib/modules/`uname -r`/kernel/drivers/usb/serial/ and rename it to usbserial.ko

#cp /usr/src/kernels/`uname -r`/drivers/usb/serial/ztemt.ko /lib/modules/`uname -r`/kernel/drivers/usb/serial/usbserial.ko

Install the new usbserial kernel module like this

#depmod -a

Reboot to save changes.

#reboot

Now lets modprobe with added parameters

#modprobe usbserial vendor=0×19d2 product=0xfff1 maxRSize=12288 maxWSize=8192;sudo wvdial

Enjoy the highspeed access over 250 kbps   Depending on the signal strength this goes upto 400kbps. Welcome hack!!

Have fun

The new device Zte AC2726 is a usb composite device which means at the same time it emulates as a usb cdrom device as well as usb evdo/cdma_1x(rtt_1x) modem. This is fairly simple to install in Windows Vista without the need of any cd. The device has the windows software listed in it and when plugged in prompts to install the setup needed else runs the application if already installed on the local syste. Quiet amazing.

Now lets put it back to older systems like Windows XP which dont have neccesary drivers for the usb composite device and go bananas trying to figure what it is. I tried updating my drivers through many available softwares Driver Detective, Driver Genius. All of em fail. Some which do recognize it ask for money. After spending Rs. 3500 on the device already. That was a no go. Bad bad support.

Now I wanted to try and make it work on Fedora. So I plugged in the device to see if it recognises it.

#lsusb

Output
**********************
Bus 001 Device 001: ID 1d6b:0002 Linux Foundation 2.0 root hub
Bus 005 Device 005: ID 19d2:fff5 ONDA Communication S.p.A.
Bus 005 Device 001: ID 1d6b:0001 Linux Foundation 1.1 root hub
Bus 004 Device 001: ID 1d6b:0001 Linux Foundation 1.1 root hub
Bus 003 Device 001: ID 1d6b:0001 Linux Foundation 1.1 root hub
Bus 002 Device 001: ID 1d6b:0001 Linux Foundation 1.1 root hub
**********************
End Output
#dmesg

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Lists no ttyUSBx device but shows it as a cdrom
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Lets make a switch which changes the usb cdrom mode to usb modem mode. For this we require usb_modeswitch. Lets install it.

#yum install usb_modeswitch

**********************
usb_modeswitch is installed
**********************

We know what to look for. So lets add these lines in usb_modeswitch.conf and uncommented and comment all other lines.

#vim /etc/usb_modeswitch.conf

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########################################################
# ZTE AC2726 (EVDO)
#
# Contributor: Navin Dutta

DefaultVendor=  0×19d2
DefaultProduct= 0xfff5

TargetVendor=   0×19d2
TargetProduct=  0xfff1

MessageEndpoint=0×0a
MessageContent=”5553424312345678c00000008000069f010000000000000000000000000000″

**********************

Now lets make it switch.

#usb_modeswitch

**********************
Successful… msg sent
**********************

now lsusb to see if it got changed

#lsusb

Output
**********************
Bus 001 Device 001: ID 1d6b:0002 Linux Foundation 2.0 root hub
Bus 005 Device 005: ID 19d2:fff1 ONDA Communication S.p.A.
Bus 005 Device 001: ID 1d6b:0001 Linux Foundation 1.1 root hub
Bus 004 Device 001: ID 1d6b:0001 Linux Foundation 1.1 root hub
Bus 003 Device 001: ID 1d6b:0001 Linux Foundation 1.1 root hub
Bus 002 Device 001: ID 1d6b:0001 Linux Foundation 1.1 root hub
**********************
End Output

Yes it got changed from fff5 to fff1 which means from cdrom to modem mode

Now lets modprobe it

#modprobe usbserial vendor=0×19d2 product=0xfff1

Now lsusb or dmesg to see the if it gets detected

#dmesg

**********************

usbserial_generic: generic carrier detected
…..
…..
**********************

Now put ttyUSB0 in wvdial.conf

#vim /etc/wvdial.conf

**********************
[Dialer Defaults]
Modem = /dev/ttyUSB0
Init2 = ATQ0 V1 E1 S0=0 &C1 &D2 +FCLASS=0
Modem Type = Analog Modem
Phone=#777
Username=9xxxxxxxxx
Init1=ATZ
Password=9xxxxxxxxx
Baud=4608000
PPPP Path= /usr/sbin/pppd
New PPPD= 1
Stupid Mode = 1
Tonline = 0

**********************

#sudo wvdial

**********************
Gets connected. Voila!! I get an average speed of over 60kbps. Not bad.
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Check the part two of this article for the kernel module hack for high speed access of over 250 kbps with the same device.

http://navindutta.com/wordpress/2009/09/installing-reliance-broadband-on-fedora-linux-part-two/

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Agendas… None

Venue: CCD (:P i dont rem what was that place) in New Delhi

Time: 12 mid noon

Who All? umm… we know each other for an year now, online that is; these ubercool identities finally thought its time to break out of the coccoon.. but only five of us were brave enough for this frogging

Members who finally made it:

Surabhi – the humor queen hostess

Saurabh – What next??

Who am I aka Priy – I am yet to find me

Shiney – Am cool !!

Navin – I ll capture all of this

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So on to the story rightaway… I was told there is a meet coming up on August 2nd and i thought “okay it ll be fun!!”…… It surely was!!

Just as a matter of fact from past experiences I had my plan B ready I took a book with me just incase…. you know… noone turns up yes that happens here in delhi specially if its general community other any software thing or entrepreneurial thing…. ppl just dont turn up… :/ Anyway back the story…

I entered the scene… and here z what it was like… I noted two people going yak yak yak and one sitting in a corner observing them kind of silently the best part was, they didnt realise, that they changed gears and overtook this candidate whenever she had somethin to say bechari…. n somethng quiet astonishing was the fact that the queen wanted to stay longer but the maharajical majesty was bored after he was left with no spice to curry his “What next”….

And our very own humour guru Surabhi .. well her potential is unquestionable and she mantained the pace right throughout

Girl you have some talent!! a perfect gossip guerilla …. hats off to her energy and wit !!

whatever came out of her bag was strictly confidential but so very bloggable also i must say there was fellow who gained all the focus of the hocus pocus right from the start towards the end…. I dont recall his name.. but he is known for proposing all the dames in the community “Do you have a bry frand? ” Okay agreed.. thats too much masala

then aayee thodi late lateef who had not clue of the time… or even who she was…. ”who am I?” she kept observing people… blushing at intervals… excusing herself for a bad throat whenever the needle was pointed to her but later on we found out that she z known for her love for pizzas and couches in pizza hut …

But……..If there is one person who made the most of the meet was who else but Nivi…. She called to speak to everyone and boy she got all the chance to talk to so many of em… “Satsreeakal from Simranjeet”… “hello from Spriglief” (aka Springleaf; courtesy Surabhi)…. kya haal hai from Megha……. and so on….. kya kismat he uski and she believed all of it LOL!! All the roles and mimickry was again Courtesy the humour queen…. who else Sur madam

Yea… One more fellow barged in towards the end of the meet and the instant reaction from Priy was to put her bag on the seat just in case…. this gentleman accompanying another fine gentleman who was no less than a model (no kidding here) came right in asked for the phone… made the calls to 911 :p and then flinged the chair and confronted the mankind with the most perplexing gesture.. Hello!! meet?? AP

and then vanished in the dark like a shaktiman… boy was he quick…. and determined to just do his job the call i.e. 911 and back to evergreen eversville like Stallone…. kya entry thi by god !!

Finally towards the end of the meet our very own christopher columbus; the explorer who literally found half the members onboard and was the so called hostess of the meet who was multitasking all this while …. celebrating a bday party simultaneously; meeting a fella and playing brownie brownie yes papa …. dogfighting humor banter with another onboard pilot…. and manuevering the meet proceedings…. also gossiping abcd to xyz…. was finally silenced and quietened and brought under controlled counselling environment (that can be another big post .. how n what)….

Waise Surabhi has it defined and very clear either guys in her life are “brother kind of thing” i guess instantly she decides who to put in that category and who in the other

tch tch … so many things happened in those six hours..where Saurabh had to control the sync of where thngs are going with his “What next?” We wonder wat made him leave so early “What next?”

So What next?

I guess tht shd sum up somewat… though I can go on and on with all the things that happened … so many still to cover … may be next time

And i realised we have an invisible monitoring committee at AP who keeps all the whereabouts of who z going around wid whom.. and who is seeing whom… and also wat are future probables

BEWARE GUYS!!! You are under vigilance !!! and call for thy god if SPOTTED  by the Gossip guerrillas!!!

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All this is spiced up banter… no offences meant and no intentions to hurt anyone … so take it lightly and enjoy the story Thank you for being patient if u read all this crap. U hv some forbearance!!!

… and next time .. try and be at the meet

Some cling to the box promising Bio-Sleep
Discarding the chill of the shadowed woods.
Well……. what is more celestial, divine
Than everything above your head
Or… anything under your foot!

The fragrant breath of the soil and trees,
Under the silken opalescent dream of the sky.
Among the green spirits of the dewy grass,
Symphonic with the buzz of a fly.

A walk in the woods spectacular green,
Where a hundred flowers bloom.
A gentle blush from the tree leaves,
That sashays; celebrates, like a groom.

Hear the streams bless your existence;
Their music is never to die.
Let the pouring drops wash your soul;
When the clouds sing you a lullaby.

And when you close your eyes for a while;
To breathe that fleeting bit.
How BLESSED in abundance will you feel
To just hold hands with her and sit.

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An attempt to capture the urge for an early morning saunter 

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Written for Acrostic Only prompt – EARTH SONG

Chanced your charms; you did.
Ruin romance; you did.
Yield yarned in a lie.

Chalk your talks; you did.
Reasons forsaken; you did.
Yet your very soul shall cry

CRY?? CRY?! CRY!!

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Recently a reader of mine shared that i am good with writes concerning romance and should now try the other side of the story i.e. the failed aspect of the same.. So here is a post in the form of an acrostic for Acrostic Only and for Amias who always motivates me with her kind words.. Thank you Amias!! Like I promised, I return to AO and here is my post Hope u like it.